i'd come for you-nickelback

'It was an eventuality; it had to happen. Now, it's a finality.. Yet surprisingly, nothing really changed at all and I'm glad it stayed that way'

xxx
emkay.

Make Ends Meet.

I got my results this Monday and believe me it was not a very pleasant experience breaking down the news for my parents.

I wouldn't blame them of course, since I'm aspiring to get into medicine, I should be performing at my best and scoring well for all my core subjects the least.

Chemistry Bearable,
Mathematics Crap (WTF I COULD DEF DO BETTER, i mean COME ON ITS MATHS. URGHH mentally killing myself), Physics Chagrin of what could have been

Honestly, I'm disappointed for my cannot make it grades simply based on the amount of effort I put in which was not much at all! So yeah, thats the grade I deserve. i might have disappeared from the web for a month, but its only A month, while people spend their entire 'one year, six months' working their asses off for this. i crammed up the little 3 months, patching up the party times (& i dont really party that often, do i?)

:(

oh well, how'd i wish i'm those hot clubbers who Aces exams. i'd be awesome then.

And I've really gotta stop making up excuses for stufff and just admit that I'm wrong and I will learn from my mistake. This is a good wake up call (as if i havent got enough of them?) and yes it's good motivation in the near future for future exams which seems like they're already looming threatheningly around the corner *puffs*.

I really don't want to disappoint my parents & most of all I don't want to take advantage of how much faith they have in me to achieve my dreams which I'm very apprehensive about..

yes so, semester 3 resolutions are :

*Nerd regularly in the library with my nerd buddy, Mel.
*Time manage efficiently so that I won't cram too much before the exams.
*Keep in touch with all my friends no matter where they are.

Just us being us, The BTCs=)

love you girls=)

xoxo,
emkay

you have no problem hanging up first anymore. 

Absentmindedly you making me want you
U're Mmessi-ing me all the way through
U're pulling me head first, fearless...
i dont know how.

i.am.a.doormat

Feels Like Rain

I’ve been feeling particularly different today, or rather, this weekend. My ebullience detached itself and wandered off into the wilderness…. or wherever happiness goes. I get weary easily no matter how much sleep I get. My face is overpopulated with.. blemishes. feck! My hair is rebellious and it’s dropping every nanosecond. the more I think about work the more indolent I get and I know I’ll regret later for putting things on the back burner and killing time doing nothing. The weather gets slightly rougher by the day and you get all cranky because of the bloody heat. So you too decided to drag the sorry ass off into the land of unsorry asses and release happy endorphines while working out. And you bring home tiredness, blankblankblank brains… and your sorry ass of course. Your day continues being miserable by asking yourself stupid questions like why is it this and why is it that and why isn't uni starting yet. And results results..not knowing is eating me aliveee. Tick tock tick tock the next thing you know it’s already hours from where you've just started and you dislike this miserable routines because that’s a slap in the face for WAKE UP TOMORROW’S JUST THE SAME. You did not choose to be like this because you would definitely love to hear yourself laugh again but there isn’t much to laugh at unless you think that the prospect of not being accepted into uni at all is funny…

I blame it on the hormonal imbalances or seasonal affective disorder (did you notice that the abbreviation for this disorder is SAD?). Sigh. Whatever it is, it’ll all get better in time.

Off to eat my sorrows away because lately I’ve been craving for rochers like a pregnant woman. Bulls, when people tell you chocholates makes you happy.

Light up, light up, as if you have a choice.

That’s so true, Gary Lightbody.