Thank you for the blessings i got from everyone..

Thanks for all the char-ing

Thanks for all the laughters

and Thanks for being my bitchessss!!!!!!

<3

special post to my baby..

thank you for all the things that you've done <3

the bitch who turns 19 today!

HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY BITCH LING!!!
its beenn soo great knowing you la seiyeh.
thanks for everything love=)
thanks for temaning me go to the loo each time i need to pee
thanks for listening to my 'problems' every time
thanks for all the 'char-ing' u gave me
thanks for being such a loving BITCH!!!!

love love

p/s- ur card is on the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy.....

emkayyy~

Happy Birthday O'freak !!!

Happy Birthday baby !

hope you'll love the boxer i got for you,

you better wear it everyday or else..

love you <3

HAPPY 1st YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABY !

Together we stand strong and move forward with time

ever ever after...

Castles Made Of Sand

i realized i had loads of stuff here as drafts. it was accidental (this was from weeks ago?) , i wouldn't have known this if it weren't for a different reason.

In fairy tales, there are good guys and there are bad guys. The heroes come on white steeds with the wind blowing their hair and in all their great, shiny glory. The villians come with thunder and lightning and all manner of dark, black clouds. But this is real life. And life isn't a fairy tale kids. I'm sorry but the weather doesn't change according to your character. If you're a good person, doesn't mean the sun will shine for you. If you're a bad person, doesn't mean storm clouds will roll in and you'll be struck by god-sent lightning bolts (though some people would rightly deserve it) There are perfectly good people with many stormy days and some positively horrendous people with many a happy sun-shiney day. Bad things happen to good people, good things happen to bad people. That's just the way the world works. It's not fair. "Expecting the world to be fair to you because you're a good person is like expecting a bull not to charge at you because you're a vegetarian."

You know something else about real life? It isn't nicely split into black and white, good and bad. You see, I used to like to think that it was. So I'd try to fit everyone into those two little categories. But then you realise that you cannot classify people that way. We try to judge them and assign them these titles but how can you do that? Do you judge them by their words? Their actions? Their intentions?You can do the right thing for selfish reasons. You can do the wrong thing with good intentions. And sometimes, when people screw up and do bad things, doesn't mean they're bad people. Some times it means that they're just as confused as you are. Cause you know you've done some bad things in your life too and when it comes down to it, darling, we're all the same.

And the very worse thing about real life? Is finding out that your fairy tale heroes... are real life zeroes. When the show's over and the story ends, when the curtains close and the mask comes off - turns out that they were just playing a part, acting a role. It's hard, it really is hard, looking up to someone and then having your image of them destroyed, desecrated, by realising that they are more, if not as, human as yourself. To hold so steadfastly to a belief only to have it shattered in a single moment of clarity... You almost wish that you didn't think so hard, know so much so that you could just keep believing in dreams and happy places. But there you have it. Those are the facts. In real life you can't always separate people into good and bad, there are no heroes, no happy-ever-afters, no wishes upon a star. Dreams don't always come true and even if they do, they don't always stay true. I should know. Close the book, the fairy tales are over, the clock's struck midnight. Time to get back to reality Cinderella.

This week, I realised that I will never, ever understand other people and their intentions or actions. People are just waay to complex for me to comprehend, seriously! They should just be like me, I think I'm such a simple person. :D

Honestly though. Why do people act or feel the way they do? What is it in us that triggers our emotions? Why is it that, when angered, some people fight back, while others just keep quiet? Why is it that some of us are just so intent on winning little arguments all the time, while others just prefer to give everyone their way?

I don't know what to say anymore. Hence, I should just keep my mouth shut. Yeh, and hide away with all my little hermit crabs. Yeaah, who needs friends you have crabs and stars, right?

I think I've been having all these inner battles lately.

Running away never solves anything.
But people can't help the way they feel, right?

We're going down,

and you know that we're doomed.

My dear,

we're slow dancingin a burning room.

P.S. This has been your pre-trials crazy post. its just THE CARMEN'S actual studying for redemption kickass grades in random bursts of inspiration. Enjoy.

GODSSS~~~~

FINALS PPL!!!!!!!

Baby, i'm never getting mad at you.

you're my wishing well

you're my weather doll

you're my everything...

wasting my time on you <3

life is but a blink of an eye.

it is but temporary. just the journey before the destination. i need to reassess. i need to prioritize. i dont have the discipline. i have time to just think now, and its scary. 

i am wasting my life.

are you?

Things are so far down yet seem so high up.
or is it vice versa?

one two three years..we're all counting.

four five six..we're still singing.

seven eight nine..we're never letting go.

ten eleven twelve? ever ever after..

You're so close but still a world apart

im not suppose to be here

Im definitely NOT suppose to be here right now!!!! Im suppose to be reading my IT or Stats~~ i have like 2 exams coming up this week!!! Fuck my life laaaaaa. I just feel like throwing my books away and jst sleep lor. (plus im having the time of the month,**yaya too much info to share but fark u la**) Okay clearly, im not in a very good mood either. Weekends are too short la. DDamnn it, why do i have classes everyday!!!?? I wish i cud have like 4 days a week only..then i canhave a longer weekend! ANd plus, ive been craving for Pan mee (subang) for daysssss now. I missed those times when we can just go PM anytime we want..and then keiron will order PAN MEE EXTRA LARGE. and he'll force me to order large too, so tat he can take my leftovers when i cant finish. HAHA fucking cheap la u kei!!! neways, i think i shud be going now.

p/s- LING, can i have ur address pls? email me or sumthing!

pp/s - Keiron, have the judges puked at ur fface yet??

ppp/s- ness? how was the trip to monash!?? UPDATE ME LA

This is damn shit. Things just get worse and worse.

Get lost and dont kiss me.

Suppose this fight just disappeared.

have i always been not taken seriously & ONLY NOW that painful realization hits me? ainene thinks i've got a clown face hmph! so, yea. i'm pissed at being made fun of almost all the time, this bothers me. i really wish that humans could be shark-baits. it'll only then, do all the justice for all the delicious sharkfin soups we've had to fill our tummies. in a way, we could give something back to the jaws by just, feeding mansluts to sharks. dont u think so?

but yea, honestly honestly speaking? have i not earned to be taken seriously at vital times? i mean, there is a point that i dont giggle & make lame comments. that's the time when i'm being dead serious; like a surgeon about to make an incision, a judge about to put someone in jail or free them. so, comment on this, even in this post, me no mind!

sometimes i wish i'm more like ling. when she's mad at the world. people all takes notice, they would know to never try to stand in her way. or they could just be like CHAN CHUNG TSANG - the bullet proof shield to gladly take all her bombings that fires only his way.

realization; coming to understand something clearly and distinctly, making real or giving the appearance of reality, something that is made real or concrete

Confession # 1: I don't let people see me cry. Ever. Very few people can attest to ever having seen me cry before. As in actual tears, break down, the works. So when I turn away from you, when I shout and scream at you, or when I don't speak to you at all... its only to stop the tears.

Who can decide what they dream?
And dream I do.
I believe in you;
I'll give up everything just to find you.

<3

This is my pink la stupid carmen!

KEIBITCH: eiii..i got into mr nottingham semi finals wei !!!!!
LING: HARGGHHHH??!?!?? serious ah? omgosh..all the contestants must have look like you right?

(The judge must have look like keiron to make this vital decision. cannot! must appeal to higher court dy.
Justice Leng, where are you?)

you see, things are sometimes shocking.

but this is too much for me! Keiron Chan Chung Tsang the Mr nottingham? i can imagine him selling himself off for this man.

(Just like how we love to char bitchelle <3)

happy 18th old fuBITCH!

happy happy birthday baby f!

here a post just for you. 

"no one remembered its ok la" -mr fuad (because noone made a birthday post for him)

 love you much.

blast from the past!

look at sham and kei having sexy time!

damn blonde weh

Kei and his usual ' IM-NOT-EATING-TODAY plan'..but look at him!!! EATING EXTRA LARGE PAN MEE

'michelle, R U WEARING SHORTS AGAINNN!!!!??'

xoxo,

emkay

The Stupid Question

When your teacher said "Don't be afraid to ask, no question is a stupid question."
You ask her this question: Why is he breathing but not dead yet?

You see, there are a lot of people who ask things without going through their brain. I was cleaning the fish pond with my dad and my brother one day. It was quite late when we almost finish cleaning up. Because it was dark, my dad used the underwater spotlight to shine at dark places.

My dad's friend came, he asked my dad, "Hey, wouldn't you get electric shock when you hold the light underwater?"
This is really a BRILLIANT question.
Number 1, if the spotlight really shock things, all of the fish would have died.
Number 2, if the spotlight really shock things, my dad would have get shocked the moment he entered his foot in the water.

And then, there's more brilliant questions. We let go the water without filtering the hole, and sacrificed some guppy fish. I know it's cruel but, if we don't let go, the pond is going to be overpopulated. Furthermore, sex is the guppy fish's MUST DO activity every single day.

After I emptied the pond, I asked my bro to sweep the fish shits. He asked again: "Whose shits do they belong to?"
OMFG! Duhh.. I was like I think those are the shits from junglemen in Amazon! Besides the fish who live in the pond, who else would SHIT IN THE POND?

Some people just arent smart enough to ask the correct questions. Wonder how my dad got a friend like that. Total smartness

Pieces of Us

I was reading through the blue book one day ( Ling passed it to me before i left at the airport) and i would like to write down some of the stuffs here..

so here goes

emkay's

' Sometimes you got to walk away to see if the other person follows'

( GOOD QUOTE RIGHT??? THANKSS)


Keiron's

' Love is shown using the trueself not the fake phase od someone'

( I READ THIS LINE I THINK ABOUT A HUNDRED TIMES I STIILL DONT GET WHAT HE'S TRYING TO SAY. DO EXPLAIN FURTHER PLS?)

Carms's

' We were strangers
on a crazy adventure
never dreaming
how our dreams would come true
now here we stand
unafraid of the future
at the beginning with you'

( I LOVE IT)

Michelle's

' Life is like a piano
there are black keys and white keys
which represents our good and bad days
but in order to produce a harmonious melody
it includes both black and white keys'

(SUPER TRUEE!!)

Ling's

' I dont wanna miss a moment with you
I wanna waste my time on you
because.
wasting my time with you
is not a waste of time at all'

(HARGHHH????? IS SHE ASKING IS WATER TASTELESS????!!!)

Nene's

' most of us are not ignorant
most of us already know that
raindrops, cake and a bliss
is the secret recipe for bliss.
however some of us,
are still oblivious
as to what makes the recipe complete, tick and word.
Only a few of us know that special ingredient.
to the ultimate recipe for bliss.
soo shhh..lets keep it that way'

(THIS WAS WRITTEN ON THE 7TH MAY 2008)

signing off
emkay

Mr. Nottingham!!!!

COOONNNGGRRRAATUULLAATIONSS!!   We all feel that u have what it takes to be part of the Mr. and Miss. Nottingham 2009. We hope that you will put in your best efforts and commitment to make this event a memorable success.   Please meet the organiser of this event on the 16th of March (Monday) in front of the SA office at 5.30pm for briefing and number-drawing. Please be punctual, or reply this email if you will be late.   For your information, the semi-finals will be on the 26th of March (Thursday) at the Great Hall. All contestants are required to perform for the Talent Show slot, so please start preparing your performance now.   The results of the Semi-finals will be 100% based on voting from the students!! So start making friends now!!   Good luck, everyone!   Kind regards, SA Ents. Team LOL THXXX!!!! I cant believe i still masuk after char-ing the judge!!! MK you are coming back for sure!

i wanna be with you- mandy moore

I wanna be with you
If only for a night
To be the one whose in your arms
Who holds you tight
I wanna be with you
There`s nothing more to say
There`s nothing else I want more than to feel this way

I wanna be with you (yeah)


for you baby=)
the more things seem to change, the more they stay the same for you and me

channeling my anger HERE

so there's this MOSQUITO that annoys the hell out of me. i finally lost it, & i threw a calculator at that pieceofgoodfornothingshit.

seriously, when you constantly hear things that are mean, might be hurtful, or js plain fuckedup. u could ignore. u could switch off, & imagine yrself in a happy place. but today i experience what it's like to be hurled stuff at. stuff, is too vague i shall say. more like RUBBISH. & eraser & godknows what else. maybe i used to TRY & keep things lowprofile, so i dont really get into big fights with people cos its unnecessary. this is unnecessary. BUT being thrown stuff at when u're not in a casual joke but while i'm trying to focus & solve my math problem. this freaking mosquito exceeded my boiling point! i realized how stupid this sounded. but i did what i've done. i grabbed the nearest object i can find & hurled it straight at IT.

some people just dont geddit. there's always a line that u should never cross. u could be at the brink of it, but NEVER should cross it.

man, this is therapeutic. i'm not hung up on this la, so there's no glory for the mosquito to claim. u're NOT superior in any way. from that day i let go of this tie, i'm better off.

I wish....

(Cough cough)...certain ppl need to get a room....haha:) my mum left today...u know no matter how annoyed i get at my mum...no matter how many times i scream or am rude to her...u dunt realise how much u actually love them till they've left...i guess absence does make the heart grow fonder but in my case she's been absent for a few hours and i already miss her:( why does time exist?? why does it move soo fast..why cant u just grasp hold of it and tie it to a pole or sumthing...didnt we all just finish PMR?? SPM??SAM?? howd it all go by so fast...have i been asleep?? did i blink too much?? sumtimes i wish that this was all a dream...that i was going to wake up one day and find out that im still 5, still innocent in the eyes of the world...still there right beside all the people i love:) starlight star bright 1st star i see tonight, i wish i may i wish i might get the one wish i wish tonight..............

along the way..

you scare me and i like it. i want to be great for you and for me. all we are left with are the wishes. thank you for your company. we did the finger tango. because your mystery is there. that spark in your eyes. you asked me a question. i will always want to warm you. you were my maybe. and it felt so right. i got you everywhere and anywhere. there is no randomosity when it comes to you. rainkiss me already. my passing time boy. raindrops, cake and a kiss. give me my pancakes please. you are my vital organs. they were fairies. you whisper sweet nothings in my ear. i want to free fall. g force is taking over. strong words and disconnected phone lines. your gaze travels. baby, i trust you. you are my home. i want the truth and simplicity. look into your eyes and forget. i see you in technicolour. i took your hand. one kiss, one star. you are where i feel the safest. my favourite kind of candy.  ill plant us an apple tree. wait for the later. the prefect icing on top. so so dejavu. you bring out the sillyness in me. its you and me. a thorn in our rose. permanent ink.

sugarcoated everything.

The Original.

Replacements.

How is a replacement defined?

Is it the timing of things? Or just the status of what is being replaced?

Neither. I think it's heart. 

It is only a replacement only if you think it is.

And only if you want it to be.

Loving a replacement more than the original takes a lot of work.

But loving you is so easy.

I told you I could... and I will love you.

You're not the replacement.

You're not difficult to love.

You're the original.

this is for you.

#4 Mr Nothing-but-Ham&cheese

THIS is the prized picture la. it trumps the hidden-self (in which i hurt myself by laughing too much, my brothers thought i was psychotic) & even that keiron in his true alien form.

this is much much MUCH more deformed, original. no photoshops involve. definitely 100% keiron. put this on giganormous banners around nottingham uni right, u def get voted one, trust me.

lets pay attention to the details shall we?

1. eyeballs popping off its sockets? CHECK

2. bulging cheekbones? CHECK

3. jay-z lips? CHECK

4. FLK hair? CHECK

5. oversized handbag? CHECK

6. GOOSE belt? CHECK

7. hands positioned, ready to scratch his youknowwhat. okay okay we're all non-discreet people here, so noneed to hide. one-sided balls? CHECK

&all of these in the most public area ever? CHECK CHECK :D

keiron zhan hai mou dak deng ah (translation to the ainene & the bitchmilla ) meaning: incomparable? i hope i'm right.

HARGHH?!?!??

Nessy darling,

I dreamt of a cartoon whale and squid before okay? it was so weird and boon couldnt stop laughing at me when i told him. seiyeh. he dreamt of ultraman himself hahaha!!!

fyi im in library with baby now. omg 'chuen seng'.

xoxo

kissmeling

aka BL <3

dreamland?

so last night i had a beyond weird dream. and it was so random!! i really dont get it. hmmm.okay it was sort of like those animated animal movies except that was my reality in my dreamland. sort of over the hedge or madagascar like.

so im not sure if my dream was in the first person point of view or third but whatever la.
basically it was mainly abt these two animals (im not sure what their real names are) so lets just say it was a squirrel and skunk. we both lived in this field with many other small animals our size. we had a ruler, a giant snake.
we were bossed around, forced to give him our food and treated very badly by this snake. so we always hatched plans to escape but it never worked out well. our latest plan was to build a butterfly suit and then fly out of the field to the other side. on the other side was a housing area filled with human houses. (told you it was like over the hedge)but we didnt have any knowledge about the housing area apart from that, it was a mystery.
once we finished our butterfly suit, we kept it hidden and went on living our lives under the tiranny of the snake.before we got to fine tune our butterfly operation, the snake went bonkers and started chasing the squirrel for some trivial matter. running and running , the squirrel was about to give up when down came the skunk in the butterfly suit! he picked up the squirrel and flew out of the field. it was very tricky because the snake ordered all the animals to go after them two. once in the housing area the butterfly suit gave way and that was it. they had to run by foot now. unfortunately they couldnt get into any house. and shortly after, the snake himself came to capture them. when the snake almost caught the squirrel, the skunk sacrificed himself to save his friend. the snake bit him and laughed. he said now we can go after your little friend together. the skunk was so confused, he thought he earned himself the death sentence already, or so he hoped. the snake looked at him and said, you are going to live a long miserable life filled with torture, kiling you will be too easy. then a house cat came and started fighting with the snake. it was such a commotion that the humans came to see what was happening. they came with boiling water and poured it all over the snake. then they called an exterminator to get rid of the snake. THE END. or more like i woke up?

i know mrs banu would be very mad at that paragraph as the points of view changes throughout and such. but its because i myself am so confused abt it. sometimes i was the squirrel, at other times the skunk and sometimes i was neither? haha.
i knew you people would appreciate my dream! :P so have fun with it.

breathe me.

Mr Nottingham Part3

WHat do you thinkkk???
Am i that bad????

Mr Notthingham PART2

WANTED!!!!

WE LOVE MR NOTTHINGHAM!




who wants to do PART 3??

Mr Nottingham PART 1

Drumrolls presenting Mr Nottingham..

Omg damn hot right? look at his face, he can compete for Mr Universe somemore (with the aliens) =)

For more information bout this hot dude please contact as follows :-

Terms and conditions:-

1. Hot posing will be FOC.
2. 'Woh tip' breath will be 5 bucks each.
3. Farting 10 bucks each. (Extra charges for those who wants it in the car)

haha and i know carmen wants it.

( hehe char char char !!! THANKS !!!)

ViVa ForevA Bitches!!!!!

Do you still remember how we used to be
Feeling together believe in whatever
My love has said to me
Both of us were dreamers Young love in the sun
Felt like my saviour My spirit I gave you
We'd only just begun
Hasta Manana Always be mine

Viva Forever I'll be waiting
Everlasting Like the sun
Live Forever for the moment
Ever searching for the world

Yes I still remember every whispered word
The touch of your skin, giving life from within
Like a love song that I've heard
Slipping through our fingers, like the sands of time
Promises made, every memory saved
Has reflections in my mind
Hasta Manana, always be mine

Viva Forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, Like the sun
Live Forever, For the moment
Ever searching, for the world

But we're all alone, was it just a dream
Feelings untold, They will never be sold
And the secrets safe with me
Hasta Manana, always be mine

Viva Forever, I'll be waiting
Everlasting, Like the sun
Live Forever, for the moment
Ever searching, for the world

GUYS!!!i think i'm like emo-ing these days la howwww???
I was sleeping that night until i over-heard this song and i kinda thought back of the good times we had last time with ME around THXX!!!!\
But Whatteverrrrr the 'Spice BITches' rocks!!
Ok fine i'm not like gonna make this an emo blog but yeah on second thought WHy not????
LING!! i thought you got smthg to tell me 1?








Sorry boyfriendsssss of the girlsss...
I dont have any individual pics with you guys sooooo sorreehh AH!!
We should have a gathering with YOU so called "AUSSIES" out thre....

AND LASTLY!!!!!!
YOU FkiNG BITCHH MKK!!!!
you NOT SUPPOSE TO STEAL MY COLOR YOu ULTIMATE BITCH!!!!!


~keiron signing off~

things change but they dont always have to end?

How true is that statement? I dont know what im suppose to feel right now.
I miss you guys soo much. him especially

Being here has a been a whole new experience for me. Meeting new people makes me feel that there are more to discover, more to learn, more opportunities, more everything..But inevitably, i miss you guys back home. I miss chau keuy teow too. I miss indian rojak also.

i have sooo many thoughts but i dont know what to write. But i feel like this right now,

Making my way downtown
Walking fast
Faces passed
And I'm home bound

Staring blankly ahead
Just making my way
Making my way
Through the crowd

And I need you
And I miss you
And now I wonder....

keiron's famous 'model' pose wtf?


us!!

missing shammeh!

keiron's 9th birthday!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAH yes people he looks 19 but he has 9 year old mentality. dont u all agree with me?


i just had to add tis! THANKS!!

and tyl, i miss you!!!!

not just yet,
emkay

A Thought

I have a severe inability to get all deep...throughout the year ive sat amongst ppl who can let out all their emotions all their inner feelings and all their thoughts on pieces of papers

...and yet when the book arrives in front of me i go blank....gone are all the
thoughts i had running through my mind merely seconds ago...

..dont get me wrong, i dont have a problem expressing my feelings, i can very well tell a person right to his or her face what i think of them. i can tell u straight up that what ure doing or planning to do is wrong..things that i can speak out so easily seem tremendously hard for me to write down

...this is my pathethic attempt at getting deep...and also my due apology to everyone
for not writing much in your diaries:) trust me i tried..lots of times before i finally
put down my pen and admit defeat...and return an empty book:(

Signing off
Sham

TYL is back in action! =)

love me or hate me

if you dont love me then **** you

Gosh, I know you guys had been missing me soooooo much right right right? everyone and i mean EVERYONE had been trying to call me these days *wink wink* (I am NOT exaggerating)

Oh and the reason why im using back 'kissmeling' is because im so delicious, delightful, lovable, yummy, tasty and mouth-watering that you all will be dying to kiss me! haha admit it guys!

The first thing i have to do is char 'sei pj' for stealing my favorite pink! The whole world knows i LOVE pink okay? sei mklew..i'm so going to char you for this man.

So in the end, out of no choice, i am forced to choose the prettiest pink which suits me the BEST. (haih, and i thought i could be low profile this time but why?? why can't i be invisible? why can't i be keiron for once?)

FYI mr. m is a NERD. you should be named MR. N instead. i'm a lamo~

xoxo

kissmeling

aka BL

Three, with this.

Hello everyone,

This is Mr. M again. This is my third post, the first of it's kind in this blog. Hmmm, why don't I begin by updating all of you?

It's been great in university. The School of Medicine kicked it off with a transition camp in PD, which I'm very grateful for. It introduced me to a variety of people and the array of activities that I'll be doing in Medicine. It was tremendously fun. 

My lectures for the first week aren't so packed. But it looks to be filled for the second week. Yesterday, I had a three hour break which I spent at Pyramid, hanging out with a group of new friends. Naturally, the ice broke when all the vulgar subjects came up. It reminded me of you guys. I really do miss all of you...

Moving on to a much more interesting topic...

When dreaming, the mind is theorised to enter a deep sleep, usually during periods of REM sleep (when your eyes move rapidly). One of my personal theories is that dreams, or rather, deep sleep, is a gateway for the mind to fully access it's abilities. All of us have, at least once, heard that humans hardly use a tenth, maybe a little more, of their maximum potential. 

Knowing this, and the fact that the brain is a largely unexplored area, wouldn't it be plausible to think that the brain has far greater capabilities than rational thinking and memory storage? Personally, I think we have the ability to tell the future. I have a lot of 'deja vu' experiences, and everytime I have one, I remember that I've seen that exact scene in one of my dreams.

Whatever it is, we can only know after we discover more about the brain. But what do you think? Can humans see the future? Or are our lives just filled with boring coincidences?

Ciao. Mr. M.

Sugar Rush.

I love the smell of your hair,

the beat of your heart,

the rhythm of your hips.

I love the giggle in your laugh,

the shape of your butt,

the kiss of your lips.

I love the touch of your fingers,

the look in your eyes, 

when you get a surprise.

I love you. 

More than anything.

For hopefully more than one forever.

I love you.

More each day.

It's more than I can say.

And I love you.

You make me smile.

You make me high.

You are my sugar rush.

this is for you.

concentration station.

i was looking through my stuff and i found this writing on a little scrap of green paper. it was from during finals! blast from the not so ancient past. i think it was econs paper but i may be mistaken. anyhoo, i was completely focussed on the exam at hand. hence my title, concentration station. but being an ainessa... i must've gotten bored during and used the paper they provided for notes and working for much more productive things during the exam. 

another chapter done.

we wrote it colourfully,

with laughs and tears.

we filled it with memories,

 to last a lifetime.

so even if we part,

know that you have penned

yourself in this chapter

with permanent ink.

i blame you people for popping into my head at that time making me use up my paper and time for this :P its dedicated to all you special peoples who matter. but most of all, to you who can never be erased. 

keep things pretty <3  

My very first post. =D Why is everyone away from Malaysia?! Emkay!! Sham!! Why?? Why do you guys have to go so far? Pityful for peejay and Sham's *ahem*. lol

Well people, you guys should be DAMN proud of me man. I'm a changed person. No more short shorts, no more spagetties, no more going out late at night, no more *chao yen*, no more skipping classes. Its all about jeans and long sleeves, staying home at night to study, and attending classes punctually!! I will be a decent girl this year, in fact, more decent then you people like Emkay, sham, and ness. hahahaha. Whoops...ness still has a black hole? Doesn't she?

Unforgetable moments...*missins ling, carm, and keiron*

Mr. M.

Such profanity this blog of friendship has. It is interesting to note how the word char, which is to burn, also means insult. I am Mr. M. My colour is orange. 

Is orange too bright? It matters not. For none of you will ever understand the inner machinations of my mind and why orange is the best colour to some of the human population. All colour is equal, for all colour is just made from the spectrum of white light. However, the personality of which each human has developed over their course of life has made each and everyone of us inclined to a certain colour/colours. Hence, to some of us, our inclination is towards the colour orange. 

In some instances though, our mind can stray from that disposition. Why, you may ask? It is simple. Our mind is a large network of neurones, an extremely powerful machine, that has the potential of any computer. Due to this, in some instances, let's say, in choosing the colour of a house, the mind will envision the house in orange (which is my inclination). It will cross-examine this vision with the other information in the brain, such as one's sense of style. Certainly, I am not going to get an orange house, as my fashion sense is averagely conservative. Choosing an orange house would certainly go against my fashion sense, hence ruining the house... for me. However, for people who are extremists, an orange house might be alright for them. 

The mind is a wonderful machine. Truly, it is the 8th Wonder of the World, shared by all of humankind.

Ciao. Mr. M

have no fear, THE ainessa is here!

ive freaking arrived people, so you can stop crying now. 

first things first, stupid bitch pj freaking stole my colour and your stupid bitch gf (miss mk) is worse! 

the msn conversation :ness; says: (10:23:39 AM)

SEI PJ

ness; says: (10:23:44 AM)

I FREAKING WANT PINK!

ness; says: (10:23:50 AM)

CANT HE SEE MY MSN COLOUOR

ness; says: (10:23:53 AM)

LOOK AT YOUR BF

emkay says: (10:24:00 AM)

WEEE

ness; says: (10:24:01 AM)

STEALING MY COLOUR

ness; says: (10:24:02 AM)

WTF

emkay says: (10:24:05 AM)

i TOLD HIM TO TAKE PINK

emkay says: (10:24:08 AM)

HAHAHHAAHHAHA

ness; says: (10:24:09 AM)

WTFFFFF

ness; says: (10:24:12 AM)

DAMN BITCH AH YOU

emkay says: (10:24:15 AM)

BLEKKKKKK

as you can see from the msn conv, mk chooses bros over hos which is totally against girls code of conduct! but luckily i have three favourite colours, pink purple and turquoise. 

mk and carm, you cant blame sham for choosing DARK colours.. she is being true to herself!!! right shamsham? :P

so to the people who dont know me (thats quite impossible because everyone knows me) , im ainessa, im fabulous, awesomerific and i like pretty things (oh shit! that means i cant like mk, carm or sham!!) 

lots of bubbles.