Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Cherry Cherry Boom Boom

cherry,cherry,boom,boom

Boy, we've had a real good time,
And i wish you the best on your way,
eh eh
there's nothing else i can say.

I didnt mean to hurt you,
I never thought we would fall out of place.

I have something that i love long,long
my friends keepa telling me something's wrong

eh eh,
i wished you never looked at me that way.
eh eh,
there's nothing else i can say

Not that i dont care about you
Just that things got so complique,eh eh

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

"shit happens so trust no one people. no matter how long its been or how much youve gone through with that person. its never safe, so dont blink for too long."

im feeling better, i didnt write from something i experienced myself recently but something i witnessed.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

if i reach out to you, will you let go again?

life isn't a dream. i miss my rose tinted glasses. can i got back to simpler times? can we all go play play-doh together and make nice?

exams suck. lets go get married and live happily ever after instead.


oh wait, currently i cant do that genuinely. im tired of biting my tongue and being strong. when will my tongue start bleeding from all this biting i wonder. maybe im transferring my frustration and aiming it at others, but really. i needed your shoulder, a shoulder. no worries, ive got two shoulders of my own.


its time to plaster on a smile again and control myself. hi accounting, have you missed me? you have? wish i could say the same.


Saturday, November 7, 2009

can i eat another banana, go out on the balcony, stare at the people way down there moving about like ants and cry a little more?

Friday, November 6, 2009

poppable proof bubbles?

do you know how long it took for me to easily share with you my feelings and problems about you? how hard it was to open that door to you? the door to my problems and conflicts with you. it was really difficult to get comfortable with communicating these things with you. i used to run to another friend and deal with it without you. it was hard but it kept things between us clean on the surface. i thought that was best for us. but you insisted and somehow made me want to run to you first after every tiny thing. you were my number one go to person. although it made things messier on the surface, deep down we grew stronger and more connected. it made our conversations more meaningful as well. dont you see that after everything that happened i still went to you instead of other people? you didnt essentially break one of the most important things down yet. i still went to you though afraid of boring and irritating you. some part of me knew that you were still the best person to comfort me. as of right now, you finally tore down what you built up. it even withstood the storms a few months back but not this. i can easily revert back to not telling you things to do with you and let us be clean and shiny on the surface. i will just handle it on my own or with my friends. you just might not know me or whats going on in my head as well anymore. we can just appear happy. i will try not to burst our bubble.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

November's chopin

I used to daydream about november
I used to fantasize so much about november..
I used to pretend its november
but look, november is finally here.

I used to look forward to seeing him in november.
But then again, things changed.

Will things be different back home?
Honestly, i'm scared about everything.
A million things running thru my mind now.

What if things aren't the same anymore?





i'm scared=x