Why do we change?

Hello May. (:

Why were you in such a rush to get here? You've made everything else speed up into a blur, and I, moving in my sluggish pace, have had to frantically catch up. I hope you're happy.

Still, now that you're here, I hope you won't leave too quickly. I'm afraid June will be even colder than you are.
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I may be too easily attached,
but I can detach myself too.
I wonder why I want to though.

I can't believe I keep to myself so much now. I used to be the kind of person who always had to share, always had to ask for others' opinions on things. I wonder why I don't do this anymore.

Still, there are the precious few in whom I still have the trust to confide in. (: Maybe that's it; maybe I've lost that naivety that everyone can be trusted.

I'm not "emo", I'm just brooding. (:

it feels like i'm being erased, forgotten,dissipating into thin air. just like before was never there. being forgotten, that sheer fear i have, greater than being alone. from strangers to buddies to nothing more than someone who would js walk past you & look past through you. & now i'm js left here cold & invisible. the curtains fall, a new story is being told. i'm gone like the wind, as if the old stories told never existed. could you not throw that bit of the past into the trash pile, even if you have to walk away? that mindgames we're in, its not funny anymore.

People keep asking if I'm all right. I know I haven't been myself lately, but the weird thing is that I do feel all right not being myself. So what is that? I'm happy that I've changed?

I think, I'm going through an identity crisis. HAHAHAHA. How funny does that sound?
Did you know that using a laptop on your lap could kill your sperm? Cos I didn't! HAHAH, I learned that yesterday. (: What a fun fact.

You know, it's nothing new
Bad news never had good timing
But, then your circle of friends
Will defend the silver lining

ps u knw what? KEI is deadmeatfriedfish HAHAHAHHAHA anyhoo i super hate you la, u broke my cycle of the fb/blog stalking which i havent had the decency to do in ages. u stalk greeny more than i do & after what u told me i went to check greeny out &&&& super sizzling panfried uber uber cute weih. i'm half drooling. he's still memang eyecandy material :D :D